It’s November 2013 and according to my best laid plans from January of 2013, I should see the number I want on the scale now. Additionally, I should be buying new clothes because everything that I own is beyond way too big and makes me look awful.

Unfortunately, my plans went a bit astray and I do not see the number on the scale that I want. I could blame that all on the fact that I was marathon training, but it wouldn’t be true. The fact is, I just stopped focusing on the right thing to make the numbers move. This isn’t to say that I am not smaller and should be shopping. That is something I desperately need to do, but just cannot bring myself to do because it will end one of two ways.

The first way ends up with me not finding anything to fit because while I am smaller, I am not small enough for new clothes to fit. The other is that I just end up super frustrated and leave the stores with nothing to wear that actually fits. Actually, it is all one big reason and not just a couple because it all flows together.

I can and do go shopping for clothing to workout out in. That is a necessity because worrying about clothing falling down while I am running or some other activity at the gym is just not something I need to deal with.

Anyway, with the holidays coming up, it seems like an ideal time for me to start refocusing on my diet so that I do get to where I want to be. I know exactly what I need to do, it is just a matter of doing it. After this past weekend, I think I can get there. This doesn’t mean I will be depriving myself of tasty food, but instead getting back to exactly that. So, no more eating out on a regular basis like I have been. Additionally, I will be trying very hard to do more cooking of good things. Sure, I will probably have the occasional “faster” food item, but it won’t be nearly as much as I have been the past few months.

Hopefully this will truly get my on track. And I will see that number on the scale or at least feel that wherever I end up, it will appear to others I am at that number on the scale.